I finally get it

Look, I'm a junior in high school. To be honest I don't even know if that counts anymore with online school, but I can say I'm more than halfway through high school. I finally get the meaning of high school. To some people this is fairly obvious, but it's not. I thought high school was going to be just like the movies, and guess what? It is. It doesn't look like it on the outside, but it is. Guys do shit they aren't suppose to do, and girls back stab each other without the blink of an eye. However, this isn't their faults. I mean... some of it is, but everyone is so blinded by the need to be accepted. Honestly, that's not a good word for it. People don't just want to be accepted, they want to be famous. They will literally do anything to reach this goal. They wont stick up for their best friends because the girl who betrayed her is "well known." Yet they will talk mad shit at the same time. Cough cough. OR maybe they fake being drunk or high... god that's on a different level of desperate. Some people think they are already there, but none of them are. Because fame is suppose to last forever right? Or at least the legend behind the person. And who knows maybe someone will be "famous" enough to have their reputation last forever at school, but literally no one cares except you. And you wanna know why? Because everyone is worried about themselves. To be fair, there are those rare people who are just themselves and have a lot of friends, but most have to act some type of way right? Most people will say noooo of course not I haven't done that, but seriously? You have. It's not necessarily a bad thing because I have even done this and it somewhat worked, but it's not enjoyable. Is it enjoyable to check your Instagram post every minute after you post it or delete it because you didn't get enough likes? That's why I officially stopped caring about this image I started to create. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying going to parties or public events are bad, but now I'm not going to worry about dancing in the middle of the crowd to mosh or who's watching me. I can still be as crazy as I am, but be less anxious about what people are thinking of me. To tie this all in, stop fucking changing yourself. Not only does it suck for you, but it's annoying to watch.